Monday morning I decided to quit smoking for about the 200th time this year but this time I have managed to advert that stinking dreaded addiction for five days now. It hasn't been easy trying to bypass the strange yet fascinating buzz they call withdrawal symptoms.Tuesday was the worst since I had to face all of my smoking friends and try not to freak out too much. The buzzing would kick in leaving my head spinning and my heart racing. It would feed my brain with the same message: "all you need is one puff and the torment will go away." Since I'm almost a pro at quiting only to fall off the wagon again, I stuck my nose in a fresh spring flower, took a deep breath of moist fragrant air since it rained all week, and just tried to stay busy.
Even with my free taxi cab service, I've found time to get some much needed housework finished. The front porch is now looking fab and when I have time to relax I can really get into the grandma in a rocking chair mode, even if I don't have any grand kids. The dishes are done, the living room cleaned and the vacuum serviced once again. All they need is about two months or less for the kids to tear them up again. Nothing will spoil my dream of having them all move out and getting the house to myself for the first time ever.
It really has been a good week apart from those few instances of road rage that suddenly overwhelmed me but I didn't wreck and nobody was hurt so no harm done. Of course I may have made the other driver a little insecure when I threatened to shove my arm up their rear. I think its time to take my Saint John's Wart again.My work is never finished and there is so much more that I want to share but it's time for my head to retire to my pillow for the night so until next time.
Friday, May 13, 2011
On Thursday May 12, 2011 Joe Richwine set out to meet his maker. This makes the second client I’ve lost but he is not forgotten and I hope to keep a reference to all that will pass on after this. In his active years he was a humble electrician and devoted husband, and farmer. His wife was extremely devoted to him as well.
The first time I met him, I was informed that he was currently suffering from cancer of the hips. Perhaps this is one of the reasons why I admired him so much since I lost my own father to skin cancer. His wife is an extremely doting woman who wanted to make sure that he had the best of care and I did my best to oblige her wishes. I can understand how she feels. The first week he was lively and proud of his occupation. It was the one thin that he always smiled about. The only other thing that made him smile was to get him to talk about his wife.
I knew it was coming soon though. Watching him slowly deteriorate and feeling helpless to do anything about it. During my second week with him, it seemed he had suffered a mild stroke. He had gone from being an active man to someone who could hardly get out of be on his own. I would sometimes laugh at his determination during the night because he would still try to get up and move. I know from personal experience that it’s hard for any ailment to keep you down when you want to do something, anything other than lay there.
On April 24, 2011 Joe seemed greatly troubled and restless. The pain appeared to pulsate though out his cancerous hip made him fidgety. Resisting the need to lay down and be quiet, he kept trying to get up and move around. Sometimes a person has to move because it becomes to difficult to just lay there and take what life throws at you. But after taking a mouth full of meds and slurping up some bran flakes he is finally worn out. Cold coffee and a glass of prune juice sit on his bedside hospital tray. At least he is content and happy to be at home with family and caregivers who love him.
The oxygen machine by the front door kills the quietness with its thumping and hissing. A gentle breeze billowing from a nearby fan keeps him cool. It also buffets a potted lily plant making it look like trumpets announcing the morning has begun. It is Easter morning.
Rest in peace Joe Richwine and if God is willing, I will try to come to your funeral. If I have more clients to take care of, I will see you in Heaven.